For the record, I never called my work “street literature” and Inever will. When I began to publish ground breaking contemporarynovels with Flyy Girl in 1993, and Capital City in 1994, I calledthem “urban classics.” They were “urban” because they dealt withpeople of color in the inner-city or “urban” population areas. Theywere “classics” because I considered myself one of the first to startthe work of a new era. But now, after sixteen years and sixteennovels in the African-American adult urban fiction game, I feel likethe man who created the monster Frankenstein. Things have gotten way out of hand. So it’s now time to put up my pen and move on tosomething new, until the readership is ready to develop a liking forfresh material on other subjects.
What happened to him standing on the ship, in the suit, interrupting my regularly scheduled programming...why are my taxes still paying for this foolishness. The troops wouldn't need so much damn support if they weren't over there. Hell I need support.
"It is certain, in any case, that ignorance, allied with power, is the most ferocious enemy justice can have." ~ James Baldwin
"Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscienctious stupidity." ~ MLK, Jr.
Mugabe said he intends to challenge African leaders at the African Union summit over their condemnation.
"I would like some leaders who are making these statements to point out at me and we would see if these fingers would be cleaner than mine," Mugabe said this week, according to Zimbabwe's state-run newspaper The Herald. "Some African countries have done worse things."
I'm sorry I would still whup his behind...is these damn laws saying you can't beat your children that has them acting like damn fools. I didn't say kill the little bastard, but shit I'm still here and my parents used to wear my butt out!!!
It's fun to do bad things, I wanted to do some hood rat stuff... Prison is in his future...
It's not very often that I get to say, I'm actually proud of Mr. Bush. Yet, today I am. Although, his actions may only be symbolic I'm happy that he has decided to take some action.
President George W. Bush of the United States called Saturday for an international arms embargo against Zimbabwe in the wake of what he called a sham election and announced that the United States was drafting new economic sanctions that, for the first time, would target the entire Mugabe government. "The international community has condemned the Mugabe regime's ruthless campaign of politically motivated violence and intimidation," Bush said in a statement from the presidential retreat at Camp David, Maryland, adding that he had directed his secretaries of treasury and state to develop sanctions "against this illegitimate government of Zimbabwe and those who support it." The call for an embargo, which Bush coupled with a proposal to ban travel by officials of the government, was unlikely to be successful. U.S. officials said it would almost certainly run into opposition at the United Nations from South Africa, Russia and China; South Africa's position has long been that the Zimbabwe election is an internal affair. The United States' own sanctions, by contrast, could be carried out unilaterally. American officials said the plan was to put pressure on Zimbabwe's gold and platinum mining industry, a crucial source of foreign exchange. The sanctions are expected to restrict the Zimbabwean government's ability to do business with U.S. companies, though it is unclear which agencies or state- controlled businesses would be affected.
This is so sad...as a PK myself, I must admit, I would have wanted a party like this. However, my father had good enough sense to say...I rebuke you and this foolish idea in the name of Jesus...this is so stupid. Not even that, the church should really say, who voted to give this girl this party, cause they paid for it...GHETTO...and I forgot to add...why are they auditioning DANCERS in the church. The best birthday present for her, would have been a mandatory diet and an all expense paid trip to FAT CAMP!!!
I'll promptly be returning my DVD's I purchased from the good Rev. R.A. Vernon...I will not send money,to pay for this chile or any other to have PARTIES! I could spend it on my own damn party.
I have to let go, even though my heart wants to hold on But my heart can’t hold out much longer…it’s broken I have to leave, even though my soul is tied to you But my soul can’t continue on like this…it’s broken I have to move on, even though my spirt says no But my spirit can’t make it on it’s on…it’s broken I have to give up, even though my will wants to fight But my will can’t win…it’s broken I don’t think you’ve listened to me Or can feel my pain I don’t think you’ve heard me Or can understand my pain I don’t think that you’ve understood me Or can you accept my pain You just can’t see me
I'm angry, disgruntled, ANNOYED AS HELL, depressed, despondent, all that shit. I took a test today at the doctor and DID NOT get back good news. I got absolutely the opposite news of what I wanted to hear. I really need this shit right now. Not good timing. I want to know, who do you go to to complain when things don't work out right... like why isn't there a customer service agent that you can bitch to, when you need to return a situation.
Shit...this leave of absence isn't going good right now...and it's all that motherfucka's fault.
So let's tally this up...
1)Bad Health 2)I NEED a new APT ASAP 3)I'm tired as hell 4)I was dating a damn fool
All that shit equals...BULLSHIT...I need a fuckin' vacation!
If you want to know what's going on...you have to RSS MsHotSauce...she's got all the info.
So I was doing my daily read on her site, and saw the disgusting photos of Ms. New York. SO APPALLING!!!! I mean what can I say. It's sad that Michelle Obama is a target for taunts and insidious gossip and "people" like Tiffany are celebrated celebrities. Thank you Whoopi for saying it, cause I agree, I am happy to finally see a black woman on TV who is not neck popping (Monique), being a bitch (Omarosa), showing her titties (Lil Kim), selling her ass (Superhead and all the other video hoes), being a damn fool (the aforementioned Tiffany), or being just plain common, and ghetto, and low class, and wanna be bougie with no concept of the words meaning or origin. Because you shake your ass from one side of the block to the next walking down the street in 4 inch heels from Bakers, a knock off Chanel, Prada, Gucci or Vuitton bag, claiming to be thick, w/xtra small non-fitting jeans, a top that exposes all your rolls and stretch marks hanging out, with a $250 weave, and big ole bamboo earrings, dating the likes of the ghetto hypermasculine drug dealing pimp who parks his Escalade, BMW, Mercedes, Audi, next to the projects or other low budget rental---I REPEAT...IT DOESN'T MAKE YOU BOUGIE...IT MAKES YOU GHETTO W/A LOT OF ACCOUTREMENTS AND ARTIFICIAL ADDITIONS. No more venting I started talking about my...nevermind just go check her site...
I'm hoping that this election is peaceful. It is time for Africa to stop the damn foolishness and get it together. The tribalism is not prosperous to the region on any level.
26.6.08
Insomnia lyrics It is 4 a.m.I'm waiting in our bed alone,
Dreaming of your embrace
Wishing you would come back home
But you don't call,
And you don't come,
And you don't say,
That you miss me
And you don't stop
To say hi
On your way by
I'm feeling crazy
It is 5 a.m.
And I'm waiting by the phone again
This is not how it's 'sposed to be
You're 'sposed to be here with me But you're go'n now
You're just go'n now
You don't even think about the way I feel
You're just go'n now
You're just go'n now
When I know you should be right here
It's 6 o'clock in the morning
And I'm so tired of yawning
I am miserable and feeling blue
Cause all I really want is you
But you don't call,
And you don't come,
And you don't say,
That you miss me And you don't stop
To say hi
On your way by
I'm feeling crazy
It's 7 o'clock in the a.m.
In 15 minutes this alarm will be ringing
At work,no one will feel my pain
It's a shame the way this whole thing changed
But you're go'n now
You're just go'n now
You don't think about the way I feel
You're just go'n now
You're just go'n now
When you know that you should be right here
But you don't call,
And you don't come,
And you don't say,
That you miss me
No,no,no,no
And you don't stop
To say hi
On your way by
This is crazy
Brrring...Time to wake up,
And put on my strong face
And hope that no one will know Time to wake up, put on my strong face
And hope that no one will know
You have managed to turn me
From a woman of substance
Into a 'Brick flying, calling too damn much
Cryin' and cryin', spyin' way down, down low with flats on
So here it is...I have OFFICIALLY broken up with my "boyfriend" of 4+ years. Moved out the whole nine yards. The relationship had it's good moments...but the BAD moments are most memorable. The relationship should have been done long ago. Maybe after the first time he cheated, or I moved out, or he broke something, or I contemplated having him run over by a bus.
But I guess like all relationships, there is a period of mourning...and it's crazy because the relationship should be over. Don't trust him, can't stand most of his friends, we come from two different lifestyles, points of view, values, you know...all the things that make a relationship not work. The volatilty and hostility were second to...the soaps.
With all of that, I really don't have a place to deal with the emotions, no crying, no yelling, no dealing. I don't sleep as it is, so I think, and I ponder and I wonder, and replay all the scenarios and scenes of what was, what it is and what could be...I'm tired.
That's why I'm here (this blog will not just be about him---I'm not giving him that much room in my life) but he is the impetus that propelled me here. I write when I have issues---my way of venting---so I'm venting.
I have come to believe over and over again that what is most important to me must be spoken, made verbal and shared, even at the risk of having it bruised or misunderstood.|I write for those women who do not speak, for those who do not have a voice because they were so terrified, because we are taught to respect fear more than ourselves. We've been taught that silence would save us, but it won't.|If I didn't define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people's fantasies for me and eaten alive.
~ Audre Lorde
