I am angry today.
I very seldom get angry. I get annoyed, agitated, frustrated and perplexed.
I get annoyed by overly emotional people who refuse to use logic; annoyed at the breakdown of the family and all the rationale used in the acceptance of such. I am agitated by my “peoples” lack of comprehension, indifference to the truth, and inability to separate themselves from a dream. I am frustrated by women’s lack of value; obsession with validation and denial of all its internal costs. I am perplexed by the willful ignorance of society and their absolute disdain for responsibility and accountability. They refuse to see the stars from the trees and therefore, are bound to have their collective history repeat itself.
I seldom get angry because I fear my own anger and am logical enough to use some consequential thinking. I’ve probably acted angry or done things that seem ridiculous when having a “temper tantrum”; but I do not get or allow myself to feel anger. I segregate it to another part of myself that handles my “emotional being”. By the time, I get back to that anger…the initial causation has probably gone away. I know myself, well. My being angry is probably not good for humanity and even worse for my enemies. I try not to have many of those either. I don’t fight, it’s foolish---again I’m logical. I understand that words have a longer lasting effect on an individual than blows. “Blows is unkind, but words is like wind.” I know I can be vindictive, the few times I have been, the results on the person were life altering---again it’s because I am logical. I can calculate how to produce the most harmful and hurtful affect on a person because I’m observant and analytical. I seldom get angry, I seldom keep enemies, I seldom allow myself to feel or wallow in anger…it’s not healthy. But today, I woke up angry.
Why am I angry?
I’m angry at parents and families. Their incessant immaturity and utter lack of self awareness has caused them to greatly malign the lives of their progeny. Their inability to get their nonsense together and come up with a workable plan of action without emotionalism and selfishness has set the stage for immeasurable damage. Granted, all children must eventually grow up and past their parents’ mistakes---choose their own actions henceforth; but the precursory cause for all children’s immediate and overarching issues stems from two people who had innumerable and still denied issues. I am angry that they’ve come from a generation of smoke and mirrors where everybody felt the need to hide their true selves for fear of what others thought. However, I have learned and seen that they were all messed up. The first generation out of the Civil Rights Movement was so intent on appearing acceptable and worthy that they felt they had to project images that were not consistent with whom they were. Am I generalizing, yes…am I overshooting the assumption, NO! Look at the state of black America…Black Americans have never been perfect, but by God, I don’t think it’s ever been this bad. The need to “arrive” on the scene of the supposed “level playing field” that they earned in mandates not mindset change, in appropriations not heartfelt change, in accommodations not spiritual change; gave them a choice. Many chose to go with the fluff rather than actualize the substance. I know too many people who are living in hiding for fear that the neighbors will know their son has a record, their daughter has been raped, their aunts are prostitutes, their uncles are on drugs, their grandparents live in the projects…their home life is falling apart. Yet, they continue going to their churches, singing their songs, praying their prayers, lying every step of the way…oh, and I am including the West Indians and Africans who conveniently try to exempt themselves. I am angry because black people just fail to want to get it and we choose those who will continue to feed our insecurities and water our inefficiencies.
I am angry at the churches…these places of professed holiness, edifices of wealth, and domiciles of deceit. I am angered by their wanton abandon for fulfillment of purpose while aggregating billions of dollars. I am angered by their intent ignorance of the manual that should guide their life in pursuit of apostles, prophets, and preachers that would cosign their lives and adulterate the original manuscript. But, what I am most mad at is in their pursuit to rule over the people through demagoguery and propaganda they have denied and declined to appear for the very work given them by Christ---feed the hungry, give water to the thirsty, visit those who are imprisoned, heal the hurting, seek justice for those unjustly maligned, stand on the side of right and make peace with those who themselves aren’t peaceful. They were TOLD to do this in spirit and in truth, through love and with faithfulness. Yet, these churches have allowed pimps into their pulpits, created schools for their sacrilege, indoctrinated idiocy into their principles, put quantity of people brought in and money raised over quality of life and service. I am appalled by the sheep that gladly go to the slaughter rather than read the requirements. I am disgusted by the “priesthood” who profess to preach God, but are more concerned with tithe raising, prop dressing, and pontification so they can be archetype celebrities and über-political power brokers. They have abandoned the true saving of souls for the acquisition of idiots. Each church has a prophet, each edifice a building fund, each congregation a mandate. Yet, for pennies they could cure diarrhea in Africa, hunger in Asia, and shelter in South America. Yet, do they do it…they do as much as any other non-profit business. If churches want to be businesses they are found wanting there, too. In order for men of little education or ability to acquire jobs they cannot anywhere else; they set up deacons boards, conferences, and organizations so they can launder people of their hard earned money and sell them one hour infomercials. Is this all churches? No. Is it most? Yes. Christianity was to be a spiritual awakening that would touch all people where they needed it most. It was to align the spirit with God, nourish the mental through learning, and take care of the physical. There is no way that God needs Baptists, Catholics, Presbyterians, Adventists, Methodists, Episcopalians, etc. If everyone is reading the same book and would read only that book there should be agreement. Each of these churches professes to read the bible, yet they each have their own spin on the truth. Newsflash…there are no spins on the truth, as soon as you spin the truth, it ceases to be true. The church globally has the ability to cure disease, feed the hungry, and clothe the naked. Nonetheless, they’d rather put on programs, pay ineffective pastors, and build centers. There will be a judgment day when all of these men and women will be found wanting for their crimes against God. For all of this, they need to stop preaching their various versions of God and just be the non-profit organizations they claim to be on their tax-exemption forms.
Finally, I am angry at society, America, in particular. I am angry because people just love not to know! People ignore the suffering of others for the supposed comfort of themselves. They deny the deprivation of others for the pretended uplift of themselves. America is being fleeced and robbed in broad daylight and no one seems to care or wants to be bothered. They allow politicians to consistently lie to them, the media to control them, Wall Street to bankrupt them, and their churches to blind them. They rather relish in the ideological emotionalism of patriotism than sober in the palpable logic that their country terrorizes others. They prefer the chest-thumping rhetoric of partisan politics over the humble truth of correct policy. They appreciate the sensationalized dishonesty of mass media over the tempered in depth reporting of true journalists. They worship the puffed up demagogues of celebrity, entertainers and sports figures over the real and tangible contributors like teachers, fire fighters and nurses. They prefer being shanghaied at noon, to thoughtful analysis and fervent rebuttal. They believe that their silence will protect them and their ignorance will secure them. Yet, silence has never protected anyone and ignorance has only blessed fools and babes. They embrace this stance in order to shirk responsibility and deny accountability. It affords them the privilege to say they didn’t know and make believe they were altruistic to other human beings. They claim to seek the best in others---they hope for change and wait for progress---yet it’s a front for not doing their homework and being sheep led to the slaughter. Every four years they create the same cesspool of inflamed arrogant rage against the so-called ruling party in an effort to assuage their own moral turpitude and guilt. Yet, every four years they repeat the same nonsense, every four years they tell the same lies, every four years they proceed in the same arrogance. I detest ignorance and abhor fools. There is a proverb, “He who knows not and knows not that he knows not is a fool, shun him. He who knows not and knows that he knows not is a child, teach him. He who knows and knows not that he knows is asleep, wake him. He who knows and knows that he knows is wise, follow him.” America is the fool and many are asleep.
"Rarely do we find men who willingly engage in hard, solid thinking. There is an almost universal quest for easy answers and half-baked solutions. Nothing pains some people more than having to think." ~Martin Luther King, Jr
Today I woke up angry. By this evening, I’ll probably be back to bubbling indifference and sarcastic agitation.
"We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the vitriolic words and actions of the bad people, but for the appalling silence of the good people." ~Martin Luther King, Jr., Letter From Birmingham Jail
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